I miss YOU

Do u remember this song? I was going through my Youtube favourite videos and I found this. I remembered its significance in ma life, and decided to give it another listen. It's been 3 months. Last time I saw you was on my birthday when you were the sweetest thing ever.......

I MISS YOU.....

I was your boyfriend for a day... part of your birthday gift to me. Tears streamed down ma eyes as I listened to it. I kept playing it over and over. Trying to bring back all my memories I had of you that I have forced to the back of my head. All the wonderful memories you have left me with. To think I pushed it all back. And now as I sit here reminiscing, sobbing uncontrollably, I remembered all the good times we had.

I MISS YOU......

You used to cycle all the way to the rooftop garden in the middle of the night. I would be painting, and you'd be writing your poems. Do you remember? How I'd end up hugging you till the sun rises in the horizon and you have to return back to your parents before they woke up.

I MISS YOU....

I can't stop listening to the song now. I don't want to.... I want to remember each and every detail during that time of my life. Do you still remember the painting I did specially for you. About your life.... how I always said, there's a rainbow behind all the darkness if you look hard enough. Do you still have the painting in your room? Or have you destroyed it in anger? If you still have it, I hope you think of me everytime you look at it. Some how I knew our lives would end up like this. That eventually we'd go separate ways. That's why I wanted so much for you to have the painting. Just in case we never ever talk to each other again, at least a part of me is still with you, enclosed in the painting. I remember arguing with my dad. He was against me giving the painting to you. He said I could have sold it. I really wanted YOU to have the painting though. It was painted specially with you in mind.

I MISS YOU....

The paper palletes and the set of acrylic paints you bought for me for my birthday, I will never use it. Instead I'll keep it tightly sealed and I'll always remember it as the present that you bought for me. Or I could paint another painting using those colours with you in mind. Only difference this time is the painting would be filled with sorrow instead of hope.

I MISS YOU....

Remember you asked me to work with you at SMA? Sometimes I still wonder what would have happened if I did end up workin with you. Will we still be in talking terms?

I MISS YOU....

Now I am thinking of the days when we started to drift apart. How you suddenly became so mysterious. Your answers were all predictable... "somewhere", "something", "someone". There was never a name, place or what you're exactly doing. How do I trust someone who's so mysterious?

I MISS YOU....

Just cause of 1 mistake... I spoke to your psychotic ex. You said I cant be trusted. But sweets, u must understand, you weren't telling me anything, and your ex was there telling me things. What's worse, he told me you guys broke up a month b4 my birthday. You never told me that....... and now you aren't even talking to me. I just hope somewhere deep down, you didn't delete me and all the memories of us. Out of the many scars etched on my heart.... one belongs to you. Of how you came into my life, gave it meaning, and in a snap of a finger, disappeared. The fact I'm sobbin so uncontrollably now, it proves I still love you, and havent gotten over you.

I MISS YOU.....