random pics

ashton and I

Jen looking retarded


Sarah and I

Germaine....... =)

Love Lalang

Did a photoshoot today. Here's a little peek.....

WARNING!!!!

Not for the young innocent eyes to see.....

I fell sick

I hate being sick..... most importantly, I hate pills. And these have been all I've been having the past few days. I lost so much weight and my aunt said I looked so pale.

I throw up everything I manage to eat innitially. Thank goodness it's not that bad now. Just thay I feel bloated half the time and don't get me started on giddiness.

I wouldn't be surprised if it was voodoo......

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And to all those who don't already know, yes I've been removed frm my course. Don't feel like appealing.... coz I don't want history to repeat itself but I suppose no harm trying.

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Thanks to M*** who's been sms-ing me every day asking me how I am. If I've recovered. I appreciate it.

To James, who calls me each night thanks.

Most importantly to Dylan, who called from Melbourne and nagged me about my studies and future. You gave me real good advice and I appreaciate it. Thanks for being there for me.

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Inner thoughts

i am very very sick today. Running a high temperature and feeling giddy. My body is aching all over too. I just pray that I'll get well soon. This uneasiness is killing me.

Rejecting all who's dear to you and not rejecting the one who brings misery. Sometimes I wonder why people do stupid things. Don't make me walk away...

And on a happier note....

Dylan will be back very soon!!!!! Early June. Dylan, I miss you.... can't wait for your return. Taking photos, chilling, and more SKL!!!! WHEE!!!

Completed

in the darkness....

if you look hard enough

there's a rainbow

behind all the darkness

And no matter how dark

Love will always prevail

And with the existence of love

your bod will feel as light

as a daffodil

floating in the morn breeze

*my gift to you*

What Hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me


What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do


It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken


What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do


What hurts the most was being
so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do


I'm saying that loving you
That’s what I was tryin' to do

~ Oh my.... i just love this song... you can practically feel the emotion.......the sadness ~

Nearly done