Plastic Bitches

i used to hate plastic bitches

like some of them are so...er... WTF



then one day as i was sitting around

thinkin.... and thinkin....

it occured to me, everyone's plastic

plastic to a certain extent.



and bein plastic isn't always bad

sometimes u're plastic to protect yourself

putting a fake smile to show the world u're fine

when actually you're dying slowly inside

plastic happens anytime and everywhere

i used to say i ain't plastic

but recently i realised i been giving plenty of fake smiles



like i'll be smiling when actually inside i'm sayin,

"FUCK YOU BITCH!"

Anyhoots... like some people say they wear a mask everyday
to hide their true identity from the world out there
being plastic is just the same
hiding your true feelings
and as long as i want to keep this secret of mine....
i will remain plastic.

set me free

an eventful day that truly opened my eyes

my teary red eyes that is



no, i'm not crying because i didn't get what i wanted so badly.

I'm crying because, i'm lost.

As of tonight, i'm going to throw the word "trust" out of my vocabulary.

Might as well throw out "love" as well.



Lying to not hurt me

i rather u be honest

rather then i find out that u said something else, and do something else

like what you say, doesnt tally with what you're doing



Lying to make me happy

I rather you not

I rather be sad than find out my bestfriends said something untrue.



A tells B things....

B tells A things.....

both are my friends.....

but now i feel like i cant tell both of them anything

cause they started dating

they'll share their own secrets....



not to jeopardise the friendships i have with both, i'm backing out

yea i have a fragile heart

and all it needed was a gentle heart to love me back

something i'm beginning to think will never happen



so here i go, i'll lock my heart

make sure it's all sealed

then I'll throw the key into Mother sea

where it will sink to seabed.

so my memories will be locked inside

and i'll preserve my love for you

It's going to be hard to trust. Just like the boy who cried wolf.

Just hope in time to come, I'll cool down and everything will be back to normal

But for now, don't blame me if i'm fake. I need to learn to trust and be sincere again.

hugs and kisses........

DiL

Goin out to my hommies

I wanna dedicate this entry to all those who have always been there for me. To peeps I just got to know.... and not forgetting those who have forgotten about me and also those who belonged to my past. Here goes.... in random order, not according to who I love the most to who I hate the most.

Sarah

I know there are times you feel I don't think of you or that I don't care. For instance when I didnt draw you in my sketch book when I drew almost everyone else. But darling you must know, I always have a sketch of you etched in my heart. People won't be able to see it. But I know it. There are times I do things that make you feel unimportant... i apologise. oh well, I'm a himbo. *winks* You're my bestie and I want you to always remember that and never to forget me even when I have graduated and leave school.

Jen

I love how you're always optimistic. Never ever looking at the bad side of things... I'll be so pessimistic and you'll always tell me to see the good stuff. ALso always bringing up my confidence level. I love your theory on why I'm still single after a year. No matter how I didnt want to believe it, the way you explained to me sounds so logical... so hard not to believe. My 2nd bestie in school!!!!!

Olsen

Thanks for introducing me to the group. I feel so short next to you, behind you, in front of you. What did you do to get so taaaall? Love the poses you do when you take pics. =) Love hanging out with you.



Jazzy

I don't know where to start. hee..... Nights are seldom boring considering I have you to talk on phone with. Most of the time we end up sleeping though. Been hanging out alot lately and love every moment of it. There's more I want to say but I guess I won't say it here on my blog. =P



Arghie

mah looooovely junkie babe! Love you soo much. I remember how she would say she misses me although I've only like met her the day before. Hilarious. I think she's a smooth talker too.... always calling me hot and makin me blush.



Dila

Lots of love and kisses from me to this lady....



Jade

I clicked with her straight after meeting her. Quite surprising cause normally, i'll be so shy i'll just keep quiet. We ended up chatting alot though. Hard to believe she's only 16. I don't care what people say, i think she's hot..... and oh boy.... her boobs are huge.

Ashton

Those days were long over and I have managed to push you to the back. It was cold how you treated me.But now I just want to remember the good times and preserve it. I'll remember the fun we used to have.... ur company on the rooftop garden while I paint. All these will be in my memories forever. If I continue contacting you I think I'll only hate you even more for how you're treating me now. We're like barely even friends. So I'll only want to remember the good times....... by not contacting you. Anyway, it's not like you contact me anyway. I hope you'll remember me though when you look at that painting in your room. The painting that I painted just for you when you were going through hard times.

Dylan

Someone I was looking forward to meeting when he came back to singapore. But oh well.... someone's pretty busy. Lots of friends to meet. We didnt even talk on phone much. COz in the day busy sleeping or meeting friends.... nights, either out for supper or too tired to talk. 5 weeks of being here, we met for like what, less than 3 hours. I didnt even have a proper meal with him, he ate salad, his friend ate something, I watched. And in the blink of an eye.... someone's already left for Melbourne on the plane again. Not even a text before he left. Said would meet on Thur or Friday, then it was Saturday.... yea. He left on Sunday(today). Well see you online again soon once you start school. =)

Mizah

I miss this bitch of mine.... she's so KECOH!!!!!!! we kinda stopped hanging out too. I guess she's busy with work now. But would really love to meet her again soon. Got to know her coz we went for the same training for Starbucks. She never fails to cheer me up when I'm down. And you know what... when she first saw me in class, she thought I was a mat!

to be continued............ more to come.

PLAY with meh!

i simply love her...... sarah!
besties forever.........
Dila and i

I haven't blogged in ages. All my entries are in drafts. I suppose I'll type a particular entry, save it... and never get back to it cause of all my laziness.

I been busy lately with work and hanging out at starbucks I guess.

And did I mention? i think I'm in looove. Hearing your voice makes me smile. Meeting you makes me happy.... and DANCING with you made me.......horny? haha! kidding! It made me ecstatic!

Yea, I went PLAY for the 2nd time. Music was okay i guess..... I bumped into a schoolmate. I can't even remember his name. We have never really talked to each other in school either. And there he was talking away with me at PLAY. I was like, "whoah! we're talking more sentences here in 1 night compared to the number of sentences we've exchanged in 3 years of school!"

Thanks to Jazzy, Arghie and Izzy for the fun night.... not forgetting Dila, Rashid and Farid who walked all the way from Dhoby to Maxwell. They went Tantric while we went to PLAY.