Starbucks #409

Just as I was beginnin to like the class.... it had to end. DAMN!!!

Just as we got acquainted with each other.... it's the last class already. Yea, I admit... was pretty sleepy th 1st few classes. But this last class super fun sia. We were not talking coffee. Instead we told jokes, laugh at each other's antiques, talk about this and that... anything but coffee.

Starbucks = Good coffee + good service + good PEOPLE!!!

After class some of us slacked around and of course got take pics la.... funkay people!

People of #409.... must remember to organise one major gathering kk? then all can slack and Gila Gila again...

NO BALLS

You don't really know me do you?

You want to play mind games with me?

Want drama? I give you drama!!!

FUCK YOU! You know, what you're doing on my tag board is only making me angrier. I HATE mind games.... I repeat, I HATE mind games.

And don't call me childish for blogging about this. It's my blog, I write what I feel.

You got the balls to say you like me.... anonymously on MY TAGBOARD, you got no balls to say who you are?! I don't care you girl or guy la.... you know what I mean when I say no balls rite? means you're a COWARD!

DOn't want to tell me cause you know I won't like you.

WHAT KIND OF BULL IS THAT?!

Eat shit and die can?

You must be wondering, don't I want to know who you are since I'm blogging all this horrendous things about you. I know you won't tell me who you are after reading this entry......

FUCK IT!!!!! I am pissed you are tagging nonsense on my blog..... and again not to mention, mind games!!!!

Now, I don't give a shit who you are, you were never a part of my life, and you never will be! I don't like cowards and Bull-talkers. Anyway, I got my close friends around me..... those who really care, and DARE to show their feelings.

ADIOS AMIGOS!

Cinderella Story

Like all Cinderella Stories.... it started out sad... and for one night, just one night... Cinderella gets what she wants. And the normal story would end with a 'happily ever after'. Not mine....... mine has not ended.

You called me up one night, a few days ago. Sobbing uncontrollably. Your bf was at it again. And as always, being me.... somehow I don't know why, I'm everyone's pillar of support. I suppose I should start a service or something. But if I do that, it won't make me someone who's sincere. So ya....

We chatted I comforted you... I remembered we clicked from the 1st time we chatted months ago. We had same interests... everything was perfect....cept for the fact that you had a bf. So yea, I stayed away for fear that one day we might fall for each other. But of course, we remained close friends. At least that's what we tell each other.

That night we chatted for so long. You ended up saying that you actually like me. Of course I was taken aback and flattered. Feelings for you was locked away in my heart long ago coz I knew you had someone.... but tt night u fought with him... so fuck it. How can someone not treat someone as sweet and kind as u... nicely?

I know it doesn't say much about my character. SOme people may call me slut or whore. I dare to do it, I dare to post it here. Yes, that night, I had the greatest time chatting with you on the phone. I also prepared myself for the fact that, by the next morning you and him might be together again. Considering you guys stay together anyway.

So after I hung up.... I was just satisfied I got to enjoy that night filled with happiness. Next morning everything went back to normal. Couldn't contact you so I assumed you're back with him.

Then I received an sms later saying tt you admitted into hospital... was worried. Dead worried but I knew I could do nothing coz he was already by your side.

Today you told me I can't sms or msn with you coz your guy does spot checks. If it's so risky.... why you want to continue? I just wish you happiness, and I will respect any decision you will make. If you want me, I'll be here... if you don't, I'll pack my bags and leave.

ps: if you people out there, my readers think I'm scandal-ing.... and thinks I'm a whore... go ahead coz you know wat? I'm not the only one doing it. and you have no idea how much pain this person has gone through with the bf. SO before you start tagging, hate messages. THINK TWICE!

Spins at Heeren

I have no idea when but all of a sudden I been hangin out alot at Spinelli's Heeren. Been chilling with these hot babes... erm... realised Syafiiq's pic is not in the collage. *oops*

Anyway I realli got to thank these peeps who've been there for me in times when I feel down.

yy do ii keep thinking?

Read your blog.... euu said euu want people who like euu to moove on.

Sayang.... teach me and maybe I will moove on. It's not as easy as euu think it is yea? DO you thiink i've never tried? Why do euu think certain nights I cry.... and sometimes around euu I suddenly keep quiet or give the cold shoulder?

coz sometimes I tell myself I want to let go.... but the moment I see your smile or think of euu, my heart melts and I realli wanna make euu mine. to protect euu and to neva see euu cry a tear again.

not sure if euu know but even before euu were with tt guy for 4 months... I already liked euu and had wanted to make euu mine.... but I cant voice it out. Now euu guys are no longer together, but euu still love him don't euu? apart from the other person, euu still can't forget ur ex........ can euu?

I'm fighting a tough battle against 2 good lookin dudes. And knowing I can never play when it comes to the 'looks' arena.... yea... ugliest human being alive... that's me.

Sayang, I'll still lurve euu... juz like how I did before euu gort attached. It's nort easy to let go... maybe in future I will. But not anytime soon. Coz really, my feelings for euu are true and it's been a long time eversince.

*mmuackxx*

Confused

I like you, you like him...... but you also still love your ex.

there's love triangle.... what's this? love square?

I feel like a substitute of a substitute and I hate this feeling.

GALS!!!! I'M AVAILABLE......... ANY TAKERS???

and yes... i'm back from Bangkok... the land of HOTTIES!

Miss me

heading for BKK tomorow. Yeah, heard me right..... i'm going bangkok. Imagine, going without my close friends. Hope the people who are going won't be too boring.

Gonna go on a wild shopping spree! WHEE!!!!

Sayang, I dunno if u know who uu are.... but yea, aku rindu kamu..... yea?

miss me kk ppl?

day before yesterday

Started the day going to Raffles Place in the wee hours of morn. Like how horrible can that be right? Imagine all the people on the way to work! The only good thing was all the execs in their exec wear... yummy! =P

Met up with Albert to go to Raffles since he stayed nearby and he works there.

Waited for Faridah and Syam at the station aftr which we went to find our other coursemates. I found the fieldtrip extremely boring. AS usual we took pics of ourselves instead.

Got caught in the rain in Lau Pa Sat.... we wanted to smoke, so ya, we lowered the big brollie all the way till it touched our heads. We were shouting and creating such a ruckus. LOLS.

Met up with Kevin and Albert for lunch at banquet. Haven't met Kevin in ages.

Went to Art Frnd to get some stuff and headed back to sch....

At pondok today, I go my 1st kiss on the lips by a girl!!!!!!! haha! see the last 3 pics? Guess which girl kissed me on the lips. Anyone wanna be my 2nd or 3rd kisser? Whee!!!!

WHEE!!!!

Followed Daddy to his office in the wee hours of morn to get something photocopied.... after which I thought Aaron was going to school but alas, he told me he had a tummyache and didnt wanna go school.

So ya, I went over to his place in Toa Payoh instead... to sleep. We awoke at like 3pm la! I never had that much sleep ever!

Headed to town to collect our Barista Learning Journey Guide... Yeah, you heard it. Aaron and I are going to be the latest additions to the Barista crew at Starbucks Paragon.

Went over to Cineleisure's "Ink" to visit Jasmine who's working before we went over to Somerset to fetch Kero!!! SO wanted to see him before I flew off to Bangkok. hehe.

And all of a sudden bumped into Jen!!! YEAH! Jen... my junior from school. Said bye to Jen 1st and we slowly walked around before deciding to slack at Spinelli Heeren. We picked a table and settled down. Next moment we saw Jen walking out with a tray of drinks... she was sitting with her friend at the table next to ours!!! such coincidence don't you think. We slacked till 10.30pm. took some pics.... enjoy!

Fireworks.....

While watching fireworks tonight at Marina Square, I wished I could be there under the fireworks holding your hand. But I know that if you were there, you wouldn't be holding my hands. You would want his.....

I only see fireworks only during the Nation Day period. I may be childish to some of you but I don't care. I will watch the fireworks every year. And every year till the year I get to watch it with someone I love, I will never be satisfied.

I long for the day I can watch fireworks with you.... hold your hands.... and after that, we'll hang out at clark quay and sit around Singapore River and enjoy the moonlight and the stars. And before the sun rises, we'll rush to the Merlion park and watch the beautiful sun rise up from behind the ECP.

No one ever gets to experience this romantic side of me.... cause no one would give me a chance.

emo shit

I sad, I look at it..... and I smile..... satisfaction overcame me.

emo boi in the house

was out with jiahui, kero, aaron and lawrence today. Went for Starbucks interview thanks to Bob aka Aza...thankieews..... yea, me and aaron got the job. Now need to go training. =)

Towards end of the day, I became fuck depressed. I dunno why.... doesnt help lookin at people kiss and hug all the way. Specially when I kind of like one of them. Very stressed.... wat started out as a joke ended up really stressing me up. I started thinking about my past and stuff. Think where my life is headed and all.

I gotta admit, I'm no cry baby but today for the 1st time these grp of frns, saw me tear. I am stressed, and I cant take it when I show concern for the person, and I get bitched back instead. I mean I know you didn't mean to. That you were joking, but really it's too much for me to take.

Till now I am still thinking......... perhaps this path I took was never meant to be. I await the day that I will be happy again. I think it's been ages since I ate cheesecake and drank milkshake. Maybe tt explains the moodswings...............