21st Birthday

Birthdays come once a year and I had a great one this year.

I had a 'surprise' birthday party...
Someone surprised me by fetchin me from home with a ribbon wrapped around the waist. =P
Jen actually attended it!!!!
A home made birthday cake by Sarah!!!!!!

All in all.... I was happy! Though we didnt get to do the little night walk I was sooo hoping to do.

Set in stone

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT .

DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY,

THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT;

AND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONE

IN THE FACE

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT,

BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING,

WROTE IN THE SAND ,

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE ..

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,

UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,

WHERE THEY DECIDED

TO TAKE A BATH .

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED

GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE

AND STARTED DROWNING,

BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED

FROM THE NEAR DROWNING,

HE WROTE ON A STONE:

"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE"

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED

AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM,

"AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND

AND NOW,YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"

THE FRIEND REPLIED

"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US

WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND,

WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,

WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE

WHERE NO WIND

CAN EVER ERASE IT

"LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND

AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL PERSON,

AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM,

A DAY TO LOVE THEM,

BUT THEN ,

AN ENTIRE LIFE TO FORGET THEM.

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I've been writing in sand alot lately. But I've also been writing on stone. And trust me, writing on stone just makes all the writing in sand worthwhile. =)

like a deep gash across the chest

it hurts me.... when i wanted to hug you and you pushed me away......not even wanting to look at me.

Let's run away

you hav no idea how much i long to.......
reach out for your hand
hold on to it tightly
and run away with you.........

just the 2 of us
re-live the moments
when we're away frm sg
from all the stress
pressure of curfews

I love you and i bet you don't even know it
You don't even know how serious I am.

Weekend in JB

So for those of you who didn't already know, I spent the previous weekend in JB with my 2 cousins and Farid. Weekend of eating, shopping, movie and ciggarettes? Farid would say my weekend was just filled with ciggarettes la, we watched 1 movie, did only window shopping and I ate very little coz i'm seldom hungry? Cant say the same for my cousins though..... they SHOPPED!!!!!!!



While my cousins shopped Farid and I did some DIY hair colouring.... =P

After which we went to watch Narnia...Prince Caspian. Great movie. Kak Ati fell in love with all the 3 guys in the movie. If i'm not wrong she loved the Prince, then comes the King and the High King.

We had supper afterwards coz I was hungry.... but i just settled on prata.

Took more pics before heading back to Singapore.

Bought cakes for Kangyong since it was his birthday and decided to meet him once we reached Singapore. What we didnt expect was the cake to all be melted.

Check out kangyong's reaction.

ps: no pics of my cousins coz apparently they claim they're camera shy. *rolls eyes*

You

i think about you in the day
I think about you in the night
You may or may not give a hoot
but that doesn't stop me.
Sometimes you just confuse me
Sometimes you're such a doll

I don't know why i love you
I truly don't know why
It's a feeling deep inside

You may be a peasant
Or you may be a queen
What does it matter to me
For, love is all I see

I've never felt this way before
This is all so new to me
Till I met you not long ago
Love was just a game for me

It may just be one-sided
I really wouldn't know
But love's so strong I simply cant resist

I don't know why I love you
I don't need a reason to
Love's just crazy that way

Sorry if I'm a burden
Sorry if I bring you stress

I just hope someday you'll understand
That I love you cause you're, YOU
I don't care about the imperfections
I don't care about the flaws
I just go weak in the knees
Each time I see you smile

I love you cause you're, YOU

I promise you

Well.... call me dumb
call me stupid
but i aint budging
i'm still gonna be here

my hugs and my kisses may not help
nothing might cure you
nothing's for certain

but i promise you 1 thing
I promise, I will never leave you lonely.

SLAP ME!

Drowning my sorrows with ironing and painting and eating....

ironing to keep my mind off things.....

with what happened recently i have even more drive to finish up the painting...

eating..... i crave for cheesecakes and milkshakes... i wanna see tt smile upon my face when i take that first bite. I look like shit in the mirror with my swollen and wet eyes.... but i aint leaving my house in this state. So I won't get my cheesecakes or milkshakes. And i been gulping down snacks and more snacks.

I NEED TO EAT

I want chocolates...... and candy..... SARAH! where's my giant lollies when i need them!

Someone slap me hard please??? i wanna feel physical pain in the hope that it'll delete off the emotional pain I'm experiencing.....

Whitney Houston

I used to cry myself to sleep at night

But that was all before he came

I thought love had to hurt to turn out right

But now he's here

It's not the same, it's not the same


Chorus:

He fills me up

He gives me love

More love than I've ever seen

He's all I've got,

He's all I've got in this world

But he's all the man that I need

And in the morning when I kiss his eyes

He takes me down and rocks me slow

And in the evening when the moon is high

He holds me close and won't let go

He won't let go

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so many entries within an hour? coz i friggin cant get it out of my system.....

i'm confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...confused... confused.... confused...

and if YOU ever read that previous entry.... pls don't feel rotten. It's not your fault.

NOT AT ALL....

it's the inner struggle that i have to deal with.... nothing to do with you...

inner thoughts

last time when i was younger, everytime i felt this way, my best friend would be a pen knife. and my only satisfaction? is when i see the red that flows out from the wound.

It's like u pull me close, then u give a kick in the ass. Then u do it again and again.

My head tells me to do something else.... but my heart, my FUCKING heart wants me to stay.

I feel like ripping my heart out and throwing it to the dogs so they can eat it or something.

Don't tell me I should forget everything or stop whatever I'm feeling coz i'm getting that from my stupid head all the time.

And to friends who tell me i shouldn't hope to much... I KNOW! coz tt's what my FRIGGIN head says every night before I go to slp. FUCK... NO! it tells me everytime i'm alone....

"Don't get ur hopes to high.... dont.... dont.... dont..."

I KNOW!!!!!!!!

but my heart wont F-ing listen...... it wants to stay... it wants ur warmth... it wants ur kisses... it wants ur hugs..............

and cause I'm just sooo torn, i cry myself to sleep each night

Call me dumb, call me stupid maybe i'm a fool for love

And to the one i hurt very badly. Damn.... was I mean.... to have it said to the face like that, I felt like i was hit by a tsunami. And to think we're still friends now, you're soooo patient with me. Only today did i feel the guilt, and i cld feel the pain inside.

Karma's a bitch

what should I do
i'm confused too
just got a friend to drive me along the ECP
my favourite expressway

I find it very calming
windows down
tears streamed down as i thought to myself
i needed to escape
thus the drive.....

but i cant help but think and think and think

that's it.... i cant think of what else to write... my mind's a blank. my head tells me to go one way, but my heart wants to stay. and this is why tears stream dwn my cheeks.

I don't know much

I don't know much....

but I know I love you.....

That may be all I need to know.

but maybe for now it's best I hold back and lay low?

Sundays....

I HATE SUNDAYS!!!!!!!!

specially when daddy's home. A typical Sunday morning would be like this;

"Wan, you wash the toilet....... vacuum the house.... do the laundry..... don't know how to wake up early ar?!"

"Fee, you iron the clothes.... prepare the food..."

Yes he gets FUCKING bossy. Oh his duty on Sundays, drive my bro to and from religous class which apparently tires him out alooot. So the 2 older kids will be bossed arnd to do housework on Sundays. My sis normally escapes though, come afternoon, she'll go out to "study". I call it "meeting-the-bf-study-15mins-and-dating-the-rest-of-the-day".

I don't get it, sometimes I stay home on weekdays... and like just Friday I vacuumed the house, and he's asking me to do it again. Alaa.... once a week enough la. To daddy it's like Sunday everyone's normally home, specially him, it's like a MUST to see everyone busy doing housework instead of watching tv or being on the comp.

Chillin @ Le Caire

We should do this some time again.... i think this place so much more comfy than Spinellis. Nice music too? heee......

look at KY's rollin of eyes bitchy look.... >.<

me, farid and darrell

dominic and KY

jazz and I
Danial and Farid

KY doin the "Nenny" pose


fazil

me attempting the "nenny" pose...

Danial and Farid

Farid and Abu

and as usual i had to leave early.... grrr. i hate my life. when everyone takes the last train home, i've gotta be cinderella and be home by midnight. and yes, i'm a guy and i'm turnin 21. Pathetic aint it?

Hard Candy Launch Party @ Zouk

So a million thanks to Sarah for the tix to Madonna's Hard Candy Launch.... tho it was preeeety boring (coz I dun fancy girls doing muai thai n beating the crap out of each other). I prefer girls on the runway.... =P Too lazy to type seriously. SO hope the pics do all the talking.

oh yea, we cam whored by the toilet. So much more fun than Muai Thai. =P

spot the ex?

SARAAAAH!!! I STILL WANT MY LOLLIES!!!!!!!